I think I'm feeling decidedly numb...

Due entirely to the fact that it's been two days now since mum left and the reality and the enormity of my life feels so huge it's mildly terrifying. All will be fine of course as it HAS to be... but I can honestly say that after living abroad now for the past seven years, this is the first time that I feel such a strong urge to be back in Canada. It will pass of course as my life is here now... but I think it's the security of having my mum around which makes me crave to have that all the time... I can't even imagine how long it would take to set back up again there... find a job... deal with winter... actually drive a car on a regular basis... I shudder to imagine... thus I guess it's truly what I think it is, just an urge to feel safe as I do when my mum is around. Man, she really does a good job at being a mum!

The waiting continues in the line of all things that are paperwork. Getting the wee one a passport so we can go visiting will take a while as we're waiting on receiving her birth certificate before we can even start to get her a passport... She's got four to choose from so really it's not so bad but since all will require original documentation... we've got to start with one and hope for the best!

Sleep calls... and because it's golden these days... I simply must oblige.